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Date:2007-12-12 03:38


I have no idea where to begin an update...

So let's go this route:

When I last left you, I was starting my first day at JG Wentworth. For the next two weeks, in the training hub of the Bryn Mawr company, I made about 150 calls a day, calling people who have completed a transaction with us already to tell them that "your account has JUST come across my attention and I see that you are eligible for new options regarding your future payments, please call me back." (The never answer unless they wanna hangup on you).

That's the tedious stuff that those kinds of companies will put you through. They weed out. All promises were of it being better.

It wasn't.

Finally, after two weeks, I moved to the main sales floor. Busy, exciting. Always phones ringing. And I sat there. Making the SAME calls, to the SAME clients... except now, if I didn't call at least 250 people a day, I was in trouble.

Let me back up and let me tell you my day. Living at YoNo, I'd leave, shirt and tie, in 90 degree heat and incredulous humidity to the subway at roughly 7am. I would wait for the Express to City Hall in the even hotter subway platform, get on, go to Suburban Station (the 4th circle of Hell during the summer), and walk over to catch the R5 to head up the Main Line. I would end up in Bryn Mawr at 8:15am (only 15 minutes ahead of time). I spend the next 9hours and 30 minutes on the phones. If I made 300 calls a day, 150 of the numbers were disconnected, another 50 were wrong numbers that no one ever updated. Of the last 100, 80 would have no answer, about 10 would curse you out, 6 would politely say that they weren't interested, and the remaining 4 I could transfer.

At roughly 6pm (though they "recommend" that you stay longer), you can finally leave. I would wait for the R5 again, which usually got there about 6:30pm (thankfully the building was right next to the train station, so I could sit there like an ass for 30 minutes collecting my thoughts and telling myself how unhappy I was as almost everyone else drove). I'd get into Suburban Station, go to the BSL, go back up to Olney, try to get back to my apartment w/o being bothered for change, and get into my studio apartment at 7:30pm where my girlfriend, who had a stressful day with her job as a Case Manager, would be waiting, wanting to go over apartment listings. I did very little between 7:30 and 10:30 (my self proclaimed bed time) and would go to sleep, to do it all over again.

I then moved down to Queen Village at 2nd and Bainbridge, a beautiful area, great homes. I was ready, and hoping that the job would be less stressful (especially since we had our new apartment) and I would take on more responsibility (the way people from my training class had, already landing contracts and I was still doing what the new hires did). Nope. My fearless leader, Kelly DeSantis, a Main Line princess who's parents paid for everything most her fucking life, didn't want me to worry about that. Never taught me how, never knew how to use me properly. And I had to sit next to her and listen to nothing but girl talk, her on the IC (Intra-office phone calls), and bitch with another Group Leader, Brian DiPolla, aka Dippy. Dippy was an ass. Essentially he treated me with so much disrespect and would do nothing but patronize me. I got little work done and did little to get on the good side of either mid-level manager.

At 5:57pm, August 24th, I was taken into the back office and told that "management doesn't feel this is a good fit."

I lost it. I did my best to walk out of there with my head up, glad I was leaving, but no. I bawled. Not cause I was gonna miss working with such "esteemed" gentlemen in what was essentially a Frat House, but for the pay. I made a base salary of 26k, or 1k for every biweekly pay period. Since my bills were gonna start adding up, I knew this and that's what made me lose it. I took the train home, and it was the longest train ride of my life. I went to a bar in Center City, sat down, ordered a shot and a beer. If it wasn't for the fact that my budget was about to stretch, I woulda sat there all night. I came home about 8:30, not drunk, but tired, as I took a long stroll home. No busses, no cabs. Came home, got about 5 minutes before I told my Girlfriend that I lost my job. Next day, I took out a cash advance (seemingly for another reason) against my credit card. That was my money until I found a new job.

A month later, of frantic searching for even a wage job, I was hired by the venerable Mid-Atlantic chain WaWa. I am still there, and I love the job. I love talking to customers, finding something to talk about, getting hit on by drunk girls on Friday and Saturday nights (which always happen, being that we are at 2nd and South), and it was just fun. Unfortunatly, they do not pay 26k and at $9/hr I was scraping. I even made a deal with my manager for 32 hours (as in short time I've picked up everything and have been pushing to get more responsibility), but he backslides and I always end up shortchanged. Now, being that I live a block away, I am always on call. I am actually almost always the first one called and to date (including this afternoon), I've went in 8 times against 3 times I've had to say no.

Hopefully my stock at WaWa will soon rise.

I'm tired of typing, though I do want to go more into my post-grad life. I think though it's time to sleep as it is 4 in the morning...

Hello again, LJ!

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Date:2007-07-23 06:44

I've updated to say that today is my first day of real "big boy" work at J.G. Wentworth...

I'm nervous as all hell, I don't think my outfit is fitting me all too well, and I just don't want them to think I'm an idiot..

...New Chapter is Opening Today...

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Date:2007-05-28 13:13

If it wasn't for cover letters, I'd have applied to a TON of jobs by now, but due my own laziness, I haven't.

Goal for today... 5 resumes/cover letters will be sent out.

I hate graduate life

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Date:2007-02-05 17:30

2 second update...

Best Halftime Show ever... Prince is fucking awesome.

Anyone who hasn't seen it, I suggest you YouTube it this second...

I'm too lazy to link, and it's in like, 4 segements... just put this in:

Superbowl XLI - 2007 - Prince Halftime Show - Part of 4

And then the necessary #'s will come up... watch 'em, enjoy 'em...

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Date:2006-12-07 17:21

Fuck Fuck Fuck Fuck Fuck...

I wrote my self a check against my Capital One account (my credit is maxed, but I have checks from CO that i can cash)... I fuckin lost the check... $500... everything filled out and endorsed, and I can't find it, it fell out of my bag, or notebook or something... It's not in my bag, wallet... i retraced mysteps...

fuck fuck fuck fuck

I'm fucked

Diane is gonna kill me

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Date:2006-11-09 21:46

Yeah... I have a paper due in a few days and i was wonder

Why is it that people are attracted to girls in school uniforms?

Specifically, my topic deals with the schoolgirl obsession in Japan, especially in regards to pornography and prostitution/compensated dating...

If anyone can help me out with this... please... any thoughts... personal opinions... something anybody's read?


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Date:2006-08-20 02:49

Let me ask yinz something...

Which is more disturbing...
You're boyfriend having a picture of a Boy Meets World-era Danielle Fishel (TOPANGA!) on his desktop wearing lots of leather...


You're girlfriend having a picture beside the bed (on the side you sleep on) of a "Happy Days" era Henry Winkler so the first thing you see in the Morning is Fonzi...
Topanga or Fonzi?

It's like a contest...

(Btw... I'm re-obsessed with Boy Meets World... I've mapped out my sleep schedule to it (it's on at 2 am on Disney EVERY NIGHT... I can't watch it at 2pm on ABC Family (weekdays) because of work))...

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Date:2006-05-06 14:40

Bored... midst of finals week... etc... etc...

If you've seen over 70, you have no life. Mark the ones you've seen.
(x)Rocky Horror Picture Show
(X) Grease
(X) Pirates of the Caribbean
( ) Boondock Saints
( ) The Mexican
(X) Fight Club
(x) Starsky and Hutch
( ) Neverending Story
(X) Blazing Saddles
(X) Airplane
( ) The Princess Bride
(x) Young Frankenstien
(X) Anchorman: The Legend of Ron Burgundy [MAGIC!]-j.s.
(X) Napoleon Dynamite
(x) Saw
( ) White Noise
(x) White Oleander
(X) Anger Management
(X) 50 First Dates
(x) Jason X
(X) Scream
(X) Scream 2
(X) Scream 3
(X) Scary Movie
(x) Scary Movie 2
(x) Scary Movie 3
(X) American Pie
(X) American pie 2
(x) American Wedding
(X) Harry Potter
(X) Harry Potter 2
( ) Harry Potter 3
( ) Harry Potter 4
(x) Resident Evil I
(x) Resident Evil 2
(X) The Wedding Singer
( ) Little Black Book
( ) The Village
(X) Donnie Darko
(X) Lilo & Stitch
(X) Finding Nemo
( ) Finding Neverland
(X) Ghost
( ) Signs
(x) The Grinch
(xx) Texas Chainsaw Massacre
(x) White Chicks
( ) Butterfly Effect
(x) Thirteen Going on 30
( )I, Robot
(x) Dodgeball: A True Underdog Story
( ) Universal Soldier
( ) A Series Of Unfortunate Events
( ) Along Came Polly
( ) Deep Impact
(x) KingPin
(X)never Been Kissed
(X) Meet The Parents
(X) Meet the Fockers
(X) Eight Crazy Nights
( ) A Cinderella Story
(x) The Terminal
(x)The Lizzie McGuire Movie
( ) Passport to Paris
(X) Dumb & Dumber
( ) Dumb & Dumberer
(x) Final Destination
(x) Final Destination 2
( ) Halloween
(x) The Ring
( ) The Ring 2
(x) Harold And Kumar Go To White Castle
( ) Practical Magic
( ) Chicago
( ) Ghost Ship
(x) From Hell
( ) Hellboy
(x) Secret Window
( ) I Am Sam
(x) The Whole Nine Yards
(x) The Day After Tomorrow
(x) Child's Play
(x) Bride of Chucky
(x) 10 things i hate about u
(x) Just Married
( ) Gothika
(x) Nightmare on Elm Street
( ) Sixteen Candles
(x) Coach Carter
(x) Bad Boys
(x) Bad Boys 2
(x) Joy Ride
(x) Seven
(x) Ocean's Eleven
(x) Ocean's Twelve
( ) Identity
( ) Lone Star
(x) Bedazzled
(x) Predator I
( ) Predator II
(X) Independence Day
( ) Cujo
(x) A Bronx Tale
( ) Darkness Falls
(x) Christine
(x) ET
( ) Children of the Corn
(x) My Boss' daughter
( ) Maid in Manhattan
( ) Frailty
( ) Best Bet
(x) how to Lose a Guy in 10 Days
(x) She's All That
( ) Calendar Girls
(x) Sideways
(x) Mars Attacks
( ) Event Horizon
( ) Ever After
(x) Forrest Gump
( ) Big Trouble in Little China
( ) X-Men
(x) X-Men 2
( ) Jeepers Creepers
( ) Jeepers Creepers 2
(x) Catch Me If You Can
( ) The Others
( ) Freaky Friday Original
(x) Freaky Friday Remake
( ) Reign of Fire
(x) Cruel Intentions
(x) The Hot Chick
(x) Swimfan
( ) Oracle
(x) Old School
( ) Ray
(x) The Notebook
( ) K-Pax
( ) Lord of the Rings: The Fellowship of the Ring
( ) Lord of the Rings: The Two Towers
( ) Lord of the Rings: The Return of the King
(x) A Walk to Remember
( ) Boogeyman
(x) Hitch
( ) The Fifth Element
(x) Star Wars Episode I: The Phantom Menace
(x) Star Wars Episode II: Attack of The Clones
(x) Star Wars Episode III: Revenge of The Sith
(x) Star Wars Episode IV: A New Hope
(x) Star Wars Episode V: The Empire Strikes Back
(x) Star Wars Episode VI: Return of The Jedi
(x) Troop Beverly Hills
( ) Swimming with Sharks
( ) Air Force 1
(x) For Richer or Poorer
(x) Trainspotting
( ) People Under the Stairs
( ) Blue Velvet
( ) Sound of Music
( ) Parent Trap 1
( )Parent Trap 2
( ) The Terminator
(x) The terminator 2
( ) Terminator 3
( ) Empire Records
( ) SLC Punk
(x) Meet Joe Black
(x) Nightmare Before Christmas
(X) The Silence of the Lambs
(X) Sleepy Hollow
( ) The Godfather
( ) The Godfather 2
( ) The Godfather 3
( ) Goodfellas
(X) Pulp Fiction
( ) Jackie Brown
(X) Kill Bill
(X) Kill Bill 2
(X) Reservoir Dogs
(x) Scarface
(x) Full Metal Jacket
( ) Taxi Driver
( )Master and Commander : The Far Side Of the World
(X) Willy Wonka And The Chocolate Factory
(x) Charlie And The Chocolate Factory
(X) Crash
(X)The Breakfast Club
(X) Eternal Sunshine Of The Spotless Mind
( ) The Good Girl
(x) Dawn of the Dead

(I got something like 115... that can't be right!)

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Date:2006-04-18 17:16

What are the main features of John Locke’s conception of the state of nature? Briefly outline how they lead him to a radically different articulation of the social contract than that offered by Thomas Hobbes. What are the implications for the role of government in the political arrangement that results from both social pacts?

Microsoft Words is open. The cursor is blinking (slightly off beat to the music, but I can survive that). I'm switching songs every two seconds. I have two small paragraphs done in a 4 page paper. I just gave up my TV Cable (which inhibits my ability to not only watch TV, but play XBox). I also just turned over the battery to my portable DVD player to the wonderful girl that lives above me. And to keep from being distracted by her, she's promised to not see me till this is done.

I'm deadly serious about this.

Update coming by midnight...


Though it's not my best... I finished it...

Amazing what real motivation can do for someone...

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Date:2006-04-14 10:22

Stolen from Rochester

10 bands you like:

1. Green Day
2. AC/DC
3. Bon Jovi
4. Van Halen
5. Yellowcard
6. Sugarcult
7. Nirvana
8. Journey
9. Stixx
10. *secret*


9 lasts:

-last place you went to: ummm... Richie's for breakfast

-last alcohalic drink: Sake mixed with Iced Tea (not at a party, just when i'm bored)

-last kiss: *plead the fifth*

-last movie seen: Cruel Intentions

-last phone call: Skoda

-last cd played: CD? What's a CD? (Last song I heard this morning was Bouncing Souls "Ole")

-last bath: you mean shower? ...plead the fifth...

-last time you cried: ...watching cruel intentions (shut up)

-last person you hugged: Kristyna?


8 have you evers:

-have you ever hurt someone on purpose: Physically, yes. Emotionally, hell yes.

-have you ever dated someone twice: Hai

-have you ever been cheated on: ...YES... My g/f cheated on me w/ another girl!

-have you ever kissed somebody and regretted it: Of course

-have you ever fallen in love: Sadly

-have you ever been depressed: Most definatly

-have you ever hit another person: Oh yea... it's fun

-have you ever thought your life was over: ...Never over... but i never think it will last much longer


7 countries you've been to:
1. United States
2. Canada (Niagra)
3. ummm....
4. Hold on....
5. I'm thinking!...
6. Philly?...
7. Does that count?...


6 things you've done in the last 24 hours:
1. Watched Cruel Intentions
2. Watched the entire Clone High series
3. Made Grilled Cheese (okay, she made grilled cheese for me cause i fucked up)
4. Watched Chasing Amy
5. ZERO homework
6. Watched the OC (gag)


5 favorite things:
1. Friends
2. Movies
3. Japanese Class
4. Sports (Steelers, Temple, Pirates especially)
5. Poker


4 people you can tell pretty much ANYTHING to:

1. Skoda
2. Rena
3. Alesha
4. Mae


3 favorite colors:
2. blue
3. black


2 things you want to do before you die:

1. Have Financial Security
2. Go to Japan

1 thing you regret:

1. The unapologetic stance I have which leads to NO REGRETS.

That is all....

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Date:2006-03-28 09:43

Obligatory Post...

For the Fall 2006 Semester...

Political Science - American Public Opinion

Sociology - Gender & Sexuality
Sociology - Human Sexuality
~Yes, I'm taking two sexuality courses...

Sociology - Sociology of Sports
~Just seemed interesting

Kinesiology - Golf
~I've been tolded quite a few times that having a basic knowledge of golf is key to the business worl

English - Writing for Business & Industry*
~Resume Writing... etc

*I think I should take this class during the summer to both lighten my Fall workload (this is 17 credits), and it lets me go one semester without another writing course... and writing courses suck and I need three of them (I'm doing one now and the english is another)

Notably absent from the list... Japanese...

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Date:2006-03-13 23:34
Subject:Farewell to a Legend

I don't know if you guys followed the news. I know that it was previously posted on this particular community.

Today, the Temple Community bid farewell to its basketball coach John Chaney. I hate to overuse what every other media outlet has said, but Coach Chaney (being a Sinatra fan) did it his way. He recruited the players no one else would recruit. He, as one reporter said, "made boys into men." He taught his players life lessons. His life lessons were more important in some cases than even winning a game.

Let me put that into perspective.

Despite having a 4% graduation rate, the University of Cincinnati put up with Coach Bob Huggins for YEARS because they were constantly a top 10 team.

Far too often, the wins become the bottom line. Schedule easy opponents, inflate those W's (re: Coach Krzyzewski of Duke), recruiting violations (re: The "Fab Five" of Michigan), and the like. And yes, Coach Chaney had his share of mistakes: threatening John Calipari, sending in Nehemiah Ingram to commit hard fouls, attacking a GW coach. No one is perfect though, and not one of these actions went unpunished.

But, that not withstanding, Coach never had any major recruiting violation. He would play any team, anytime, anywhere, even though he no longer has the talent he once had.

And more importantly, he taught. He taught his players, not just coach them.

College basketball lost one of the greats today. A man who, all too often, looked to defend the less fortunate and under privileged. He was a staunch opposer to Prop 48, which would have put many many underprivileged African-American students at a disadvantage to attend a school and get a college education.

His impact goes far beyond the court though. The boosting of Temple's prestige, the expansion and upgrade of the campus, and a boost in the student population in the past 20 years can indirectly be attributed to Coach Chaney. Upon his arrival to North Broad, Coach encouraged then-president Peter Liacouras to start rebuilding Temple as more than a commuter school, to build student housing, and to get students to not just live on campus, but have things for them to do on campus as well.

I honestly don't believe that Temple would be the University it is in its current state had it not been for John Chaney.

I just hope that the few negative things that he has regrettably done in his career does not eclipse his on and off the court excellence. He has done too much good to be forgotten because of a few screw ups.

I find myself unable to really wrap this post up, so I'll kind of borrow the words of Coach Chaney at the end of his press conferance and "Excuse me while I disappear."


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Date:2006-02-26 23:41

I'm a little late doing this...

Post TEN random facts about you which only a few people know, then tag FIVE friends of your list to do the same.

1. I'm a gigantic exagerator
2. I'm more moderate politically than most people think... everyone assumes I have a major liberal bias.
3. I despise Christianity
4. I've nearly died twice
5. A note of the last one, someone tried to kill me
6. I'm terrified of death, and I thank every day I see a morning
7. Half of anything smart I ever said intellegent I saw somewhere out and was guessing to the context
8. You all no this, no one else does. In reality I'm genius. I play dumb though every day possible.
9. I avoid human contact as much as possible because I'm afraid of a negative opinion. No opinion is better than a negative opinion.
10. I tell everyone everything, hence all my things stated here aren't interesting.

Now I tag:

Real post

This week has been shit. Murphey's law in full effect.

I blew 80 bucks in two days.

I got someone's hopes up about a trip that may not happen, and she called off work.

I almost got into two fights, one because I made a tasteless joke on the subway about AIDS

...... nothing is getting better......

..... everything is getting worse.....

I need out of here but there's no where to go.

And then, someone is having issues with her boyfriend... someone who I kinda wanted to start talking to again (and you will know who you are).. but starting now would just seem to perpetuate a thought of I'm trying to hook up with her when that's not really the case. So if I try and talk to her now, even with my sense of humor that includes sex jokes, it will seem like an ulterior motive.


I don't know if I can do this anymore............

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Date:2006-02-13 01:08

This is the time of the year I hate the most. For real... Really...

I went on a tear about Valentine's Day two years ago (go ahead... go to the archives and look up Feb 14, 2004)...

So far, it hasn't had the buildup yet to be a disaster. Maybe that's cause not only is it on a Tuesday, but Temple is playing it's primary rival St. Joseph that day, and I've been working for that game enough that I have not been able to even fathom any sort of Valentine's Day letdown.

It's still too early to tell though.


I have a new theory about how to view relationships (anyone who talks to me about relationships knows that I have many analogies about couples).

Let's say guy A met someone great. That they just are enamored with. Months goes by, their relationship slowly progresses, to an exclusive point. Eventually, a year or two down the line they move in together. Another year, or so, they get engaged, get married and live happily ever after... all by taking a nice, slow, progressive path to their mutual happiness.

Guy B meets someone, and is, too, enamored with them. Things start out great, but soon, the conversations are becoming repetative and boring, the flaws become more clear. You have long conversations of nothing being said. You figure it's just a stall, things will clear up, so you decide to take ure relationship to the next level, say moving in. Guy B is hoping that the expedition will resolve the problems, when in reality it accentuates the underlying issues, leading to nothing but a tragic ending.

Guy C meets someone, and decides immediatly that they belong together... The pace with which they move is just too fast, that they don't realize it until one day some major flaw is discovered and everything just ends badly.

I'm starting to picture Relationships as walking a tightrope.

Think of it this way. The best way to clear a tightrope of respectable distance is a slow, steady, and equal pace. Things don't get as rough, and when you start swaying, you take your time, regain your balance, and move on, right?

That's the smart approach, but there are some who, when they feel a sway, try and run out the rest of the rope to the other side, but more times than not, just expidites the issue and would end up falling. (that was all one sentence btw)

Others feel that the best way to do it is without thinking. They just leave the platform running to the other side, when this rarely works.

Do you pick up on how I'm starting to view relationships. You walk a tightrope (having a relationship) trying to get to the other side (happiness). There may be some sways (difficulties, duh), and how you react to them is the issue.

Is that making sense?

Keep in mind it's 1:30 am.

Someone respond to comment on whether or not I'm insane? Please? Thank you.

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Date:2006-01-24 23:36

I am such an idiot...

Really... for real...

I booked a flight to go home Friday night and return Monday morning so I can see the superbowl at home in western Pennsylvania..

I didn't think it out...

I have to get back to the airport at about 5 am monday morning so I can get my 6:30 am flight... I didn't look into getting a ride from Slippery Rock to Pittsburgh in this time.......

I'm an idiot...
I am such a fucking idiot...

I have no idea what I'm gonna do...

Is there ANY ideas?

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Date:2006-01-16 20:16
Subject:Still just a dream (PLEASE READ)

"Injustice anywhere is a threat to justice everywhere."
~Dr. Martin Luther King, Jr.

"Whatever, nigga"

I was watching the Boondocks last night. I'm getting into that show for the facts that, well, not only does a view into black culture on any level interest me, but at the same time the show manages to be critical of such culture.

Last night's episode showed a "what if." They gave a mini back story to Dr. King's assassination, but left it to that, supposed, instead of death, he was comatose for three decades. He reawakens in the late 90's. He's a historical figure and the toast of a nation. He writes his autobiography which he was granted a large sum to do, and a biopic was to be released starring Cuba Gooding, Jr (Oliver Stone slated to direct; Spike Lee was pissed). He goes to the height of pop culture, while getting a shocking crash course in Contemporary Black Culture; none more evident than when he was co-presenting with P. Diddy at the MTV Music Video Awards.

His biofilm releases on 9/21/01, ten days removed from the September 11 attacks. A week later, while on "Politically Incorrect," asked how they should respond to the attacks, Dr. King said as a believer of non-violence, we should turn the other cheek. As a result of this apperance, he almost immediately becomes a social pariah. His book is not doing well at all as no one is appearing to his signings, he is being criticized in the "Shouting Heads" and suddenly uber-patriotic conservative America (O'Reilly specifically) as a "Freedom Hater."

He meets back up with the protagonists grandfather and guardian, who happened to know Dr. King very well back in the day. Dr. King, with no real friends and social standing stays with Grandad, Huey (the Protagonist), and Riley. One night, up late, Dr. King is watching television and we see the window into black culture... hip hop videos featuring ass shaking, UPN-type shows that play into black stereotypes, etc...

Outraged, he decides to start a new political party, the "Black Revolution Party." The purpose of which to get back to the core principles of the Civil Rights Movement of black empowerment, but a message that gets lost in the new wave of media. When trying to convey the platforms of the party on another "shouting heads" show, he is chided by the host to say that he loves America continually.

The message is even further lost when he hands the job of promoting and organizing a meeting at a local church to an urban marketing firm, who decides to give free tickets away on a local urban radio station. When going to the church, it's treated like a club, when Dr. King and Huey are denied access because of their shoes and needed a bribe to get in, but couldn't get backstage. The podium is basically being controlled by the most ignorant people, "shouting out" everyone, giving empty messages, before (as Huey describes a "staple of every black party") "two morons started fighting." With no security, Dr. King takes to the mic and tries to start talking, but being droned out by the blasting hip hop, before taking drastic measures to get everyone's attention.

"Will you ignorant niggers shut the hell up"

This immediately shut everyone up, as Dr. King went on call out everything wrong with America's black youth: Gangsta culture, hip hop music, and "Soul Plane." (a running joke in the series)

He ends with "I give up, I'm going to Canada."

This message obviously moved not only those in attendance, but America's black youth as a whole. Voting numbers were up, NBA players refused to play until there was a complete troop withdrawl, and there was a sudden decrease in high school dropout rate. People actually showed up and protested outside the White House and black people from across the country actually showed up and protested.

The show ended with an article not on the front page, that being Martin Luther King, Jr passing peacefully and quietly, while the new America moves on, with the spirit of the '60's Civil Rights' Movement.


Okay, so that was more or less a whole review of the show, but it got me thinking. How would Dr. King react to today's culture. The media, and way black culture has deteriorated. A former speechwriter for King was on the O'Reilly factor discussing current black culture, and likened especially Hip-Hop into a minstrel show, perpetrating the stereotypes of black American youth.

I tend to agree with that. When did the stereotype become the prototype? Hip-hop used to discuss real issues... Think back to Grandmaster Flash and the Furious Five... Run DMC... Public Enemy.

That was real. That was about growing up... that was about the streets. It wasn't about the bling, AK's, 40's, blunts, and hoes. That wasn't until NWA came along. Public Enemy was more along the lines of Dr. King, peaceful. If Public Enemy was King, NWA was their more militant counterpart, say, the Panthers. Gangsta culture was born. Gang members from LA's Crips, which was by no means a new group, now had their foot in mainstream media. Tupac talked about gangsta life, but didn't glorify it, not like NWA did.

Was it art imitating life? Probably. But not in the eyes of the world. This culture was "corrupting" America. It became the only view a white person from Middle America had of the urban blacks, and it wasn't positive. And it became an attitude that, "how someone views me, I have to be that." When you're opportunities and expectations are low, so will you're results.

We don't have a Tupac for this era. We don't have Public Enemy. We have Chingy, we have Ludicris, we have Lil' Jon. We have Nelly, we have Trick Daddy, and we have Diddy. Probably the best we have now would be Outkast... and they are becoming less and less "real."

What would Dr. King say about these "ignorant niggas," besides of course to never used that word to describe a brother, as for and to a black person it is the worst thing to say, worse than any curse word.

What would Dr. King say about gang culture. Wasted lives, wasted opportunities, wasted energy.

What would Dr. King say about the current state of black stars (athletes and artists). These men and woman have a opportunity to not degrade themselves or their brothers and sisters, and to be the mouthpiece for the situation of their people, and help out the culture as a whole, and not buy ten plasma screens for each room of his house.

Every man and woman alike - white or black - has an obligation to help out every man and woman - white or black.

Sadly, it's still just all a dream. We have to get rid of the stigma of "nigga" and be brothers and sisters to one another.


Not only is it up to the black population to change the popular perception and make a stand, but it's up to the white population to look through the bullshit MTV perception of black culture. To not look at how BET and UPN shows show how black culture is. Make your own assessment. Look through that triflin' garbage.

I don't know how to end this, but I'll say that out of everything in here... there must be something that garners a response.

If you actually read this, please respond (if you are "anonymous" please put a name on there). I just wanna gage how close or far I am from perception...

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Date:2006-01-08 22:18

Please leave a one-word comment that you think best describes me.

It can only be one word.

No more.

Then copy & paste this in your journal so that I can leave a word about you.

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Date:2006-01-03 16:34

good break overall... not looking forward to the traveling tomorrow, but ya know... i'll deal.

I'm just here to say of more things I am interested in (as this changes every few months).

Right now I'm fascinated by gang life. Crips, Bloods. The "hood life" if you want to call it that. Obviously I grew up in a situation exactly the opposite and didn't have to face those hardships

The whole thing is just interesting. I just finished watching Menace II Society, and I'll be honest, I had an "almost cried" moment (I rarely cry anymore in general).

It's just sad and tragic.

I have nothing more to say past that...

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Date:2005-12-22 01:23

So here is my schedule for the next few days

**THURSDAY** (Today)

SLEEP 1am (now like 1:30)

Wake up 7:45am
Go back to sleep 7:50am
Wake back up 8:15am
Leave apartment 8:30am

Get to Work 9am
Lunch... 1:15 pm - ish?
Finish with work 4:30pm
Women's Basketball Game 5:30pm
Men's Basketball Game 8pm
Back at the apartment; 10pm

Packing... 11ish

This will take me into **FRIDAY**

Go to the bus at 3:20am!
Get on the train at about 3:45am
Get to the airport 4:58am
Flight leaves 6:50am
Arrive in Pittsburgh 7:55am

And I still won't go to sleep till late Friday night

So here's to my last, roughly 7 hours of sleep for the next two days

And btw... that "describe how you know this friend" on facebook thing is actually kinda cool... i did that to about half my list

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Date:2005-12-20 23:11

I seemed to have pissed someone off... and yet i can't stop smiling...

I really do have a gift after all!

Since I apperantly have no shame in discussing it... ask me about it... it's really boring cause it really is a non-issue, but this person is really making it a life or death situation, but won't talk to me about it (instead is pissy constantly... when they are not typing life a rehard) (kinda like that)

Sorry... I'm really not this petty... it just makes me smile

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